Elegy for my mother – a poem and a memory

My mother died of cancer five and a half years ago. Losing her has shaped my life in such an important way, both negative and positive. So much has happened since then and all those events have changed me so much, many of those changes still have  a long way to work themselves out, but they are there. And so in a blog titled Guidoland, I cannot omit my mother and how I miss her. My mother was a catholic, though no more devout then my dog, she got buried in the roman catholic cemetery of the village I grew up in.  In her remembrance and for the funeral I wrote her a poem.

( Original Dutch version, english translation follows below)

My mother Annelies Vermeulen-Mulder

My mother Annelies Vermeulen-Mulder born 29-10-1952 in The Hague and died 22-09-2005 in Made.

Niet loslaten
nooit loslaten
met beide handen vastpakken
vasthouden
voor altijd

Geven, nemen, geven, nemen,
geven, nemen, nemen, nemen
want het is mama
en bij haar mag dat

Niet gaan
nooit gaan
Ik wil nog eens onder je veren schieten
schuilen voor de grote boze wereld

Yamas!
Een traan, twee tranen,
Voor ik het weet verdrink ik
in verdriet.

Dus ik laat niet los
zal nooit loslaten
met beide handen vastpakken
vasthouden
voor altijd.

(English translation)

Don’t let go
Never let go
Grab hold with both hands
Hold on
Forever

Give, take, give, take,
Give, take, take, take
Because it’s mama
And you can do that with her

Don’t go
Never go
I want to hide under your skirts one more time
Hide from the big bad world.

Yamas!
One tear, two tears
Before you know it  I will drown
In sorrow

So I will not let go
I will never let go
Grab hold with both hands
Hold on
Forever.

Mama, I miss you.

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About gembolding

32 yo restaurant co-owner in the Netherlands. I am also short, fat, gay, deaf, cross-continentally partnered and addicted to chocolate, fudge and fries. View all posts by gembolding

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